I went to the eye doctor for my annual check-up, which has been two years because of Covid, and found out that not only do I need reading glasses but I also have cataracts. My first thought was I’m not that old, I’m only 43, cataracts is for old people. I spent the entire drive home in so much reaction.
Immediately after walking in my door, I looked up cataracts (a clouding of the eye lens) in Messages from the Body by Michael J. Lincoln: “seeing a dark future ahead in which there is no joy and no end in sight…they systematically seek to avoid looking at the future.” (Louise Hay says the same: Inability to see ahead with joy. Dark future.)
My first thought upon reading that was, yeah that’s pretty much where my thoughts and vibrations have been for years. My vision has been very cloudy about my future, my hope for my future, if I would even have a future. I really didn’t start saving for retirement until I was in my late 30s because I never thought I would make it to retirement age. I figured I would’ve killed myself by then.
I want to be more hopeful about my future. I want to believe that I can have a future that includes really amazing things. I want to believe that I can have a fulfilling, satisfying, amazing life for the next 50+ years. I want to see clearly. I don’t want my perspective clouded by everything that I have thought and created and manifested from before. I want to start fresh and see my future with a clear perspective.
I don’t really want to talk about this with people, unless they are in alignment and on the same path, because I know what I will hear is, “Getting old sucks.” or “That’s just the way it goes.” or “Yeah, it’s all downhill from here.” Yes, I do have those thoughts and beliefs, but I want to shift them. I do know it’s possible to heal and return to well-being. If you have any doubt about the ability of the body to spontaneously heal, read Anita Moorjani’s book Dying to Be Me. Every time I have doubt I think about her. After slipping into a coma because her body was riddled with cancer, she had an NDE and came back into her body. She KNEW she was healthy and two weeks later the tumors were gone.
This diagnosis opened me up to really focus on what I want for my future. It’s like a switch was flipped. I’m more excited and positive than I’ve ever been. Every time I notice the clouding, I tell myself I have amazing and wonderful things in my future. Source is bringing everything in perfect timing. It’s already on the way. The last few days have been so freeing. I have a completely different perspective about life and how the universe works. It’s like everything has fallen into place and I’m seeing with new eyes. This is how you change your life—little by little, day by day, being confronted with contrast and consciously pivoting to what you want.