OK, so the world didn’t end today, but it is a new beginning. I can feel the change coming, though I’ve been feeling it for awhile, and the whole Mayan calendar 2012 thing actually started last December, so anyone who is in tune energetically has been seeing some major shifts in 2012. I think that things are going to start smoothing out for people who have been diligently rebalancing themselves and looking at their shit, as we so eloquently put it back in Dee Wallace’s acting class. I for one am all for a smoother road, an easier life.
I think 2013 is going to be about being. I feel like my entire life up until now has been about doing. Needing to work hard to achieve something, believing that working hard will bring you what you want, or simply keeping myself busy so I wouldn’t have to deal with any of my emotional issues. A hamster is technically doing a lot on that wheel, but actually going nowhere. The only reason it takes hard work to get something is because you believe it does. Line up with it energetically and it will arrive at your doorstep with minimal physical effort from you. Of course, most of us have a hard time believing that, so we perpetuate the hard work = success equation.
In order to clean up my energy and do more being instead of doing, I’ve made a commitment to being positive and refraining from any negative comments–no complaining, no snarky gossiping, no criticism, even towards myself. Let me tell you, today was my first day and the best I could do today was say that I could now recognize how much I complain or make snarky comments, even if it’s only in my head. And I consider myself pretty self-aware.
It’s time to start a new habit. In this time of renewal and rebirth, start anew and commit to yourself. You’re only hurting yourself by complaining or blaming someone else for your problems. We’re trained to spend hours working towards a goal, but how many hours do you commit to cleaning up your energy? That’s the only way you’re going to see monumental change in your life. Otherwise , you’re just on the hamster wheel going nowhere. You can’t do happy; you have to be happy. Spend less time doing and more time being and just see how your life is transformed.
UPDATE: Right after I posted this, I read Gwyneth Paltrow’s latest goop email about perfectionism. It’s all about how we are always doing things, trying to be perfect instead of giving ourselves a break and just being. Obviously, it’s up for everyone right now.